Temporal Vortex

Haha, this was the only chance I had to write about what I have experienced during the Retreat. It is all because of this rotting PC. I just installed RF Online when it messed up and ended up being booted by my brother XD. Anyway, this is what happened…

It was very exciting since I didn’t attended the last year field trip so I was worked up to arrive early enough to school. I didn’t know that we must write retreat letters to our friends. Actually, I read the letters before this line. I actually plan to read them while I’m making this entry. Thanks to all people that gave me letters. So far, I haven’t been given by someone I never made one(Haha, alam ko naman na yung iba wala nang masabi!). I made the letters during the retreat itself and luckily, I was able to finished it. Enough words to lighten up their minds and brighten up their days. I hope I didn’t hurt their feelings with some of the words I include in the letters to somehow sum up how I describe them as someone whom they shared their time with.

I was asleep the whole time we were traveling from both routes since I hate bus rides. I hate the scent of the bus and it makes me dizzy. I also folded some crane oregami while the ride which triggered my dizziness. I was thankful to have Chezka beside me because she acted as my pillow .

The main facility of the Carmelite is high-class as they say (of course, it should be… since it cost us that much). I had JP and Buqs as my roommates.

The session with the monk(dunno his name since he didn’t told us) was very heartfelt… I was very moved by what he said about things. One thing for sure… I didn’t felt the guilt during the sermon about our parent’s sacrifices to us because I think I do things how they raised me as their child. Though I sometimes failed their expectations , I try to do it rightly next time. I think my classmates think me of something they called as a “rock” since I didn’t shed a tear but I’m the kind of person who’ll do all for the sake of my parents.

Haha, It must be a bit funny but I think I have resolved myself already before the retreat happened.

The retreat is very tiring, I thought Im going to experience “impatso” because after eating, we must return again to the conference hall without even having a short walk.

~ I pledged that day… ~

[a must…]

It might be very soon before us seniors realize that the day we must left for college is drawing near. I don’t know how I should handle things from now on. Certainly back then, I was wishing not to study here but now I’m starting to get sad now I won’t be able to go to it now and then. I can’t imagine how things will turn out the day we will start to set our paths… Just thinking of it makes me want to sob… Reminiscing the days makes me want to go back and start again my high school without regrets.

I have finished watching Lucky Star. The ending can be compared to my situation since they are also graduating class. I envy the characters because they were able to do something together with their friends that is very memorable. To think I am an introvert person and doesn’t go with my classmates whenever there are “mall trips”.

I don’t know if I want to end my ties with them quickly or I would rather make some memories with them together. High school really is the happiest moment in school but it is also the saddest… Still, I want to cherish the times my friends and I have spent together. I will keep them and never forget…

Just wanna share a good song~

Kansha (Gratitude)

warattekureru, sasaetekureru
hagemashite kureru daiji na hito he

nani ga nai hibi, kono mainichi
ima kou shite koko ni iki
yaranakya naranai koto mo
nakanaka deki nai koto mo

sore takusen aru kedo
itsudemo ganbattekou
sore mo mawai no egao
ni hagemasareta okage da yo

nandakanda ittatte yappa
hontou kansha, sore ga aru sa
kakekaenai tomodachi, kazoku
tomo ni kokochi yoku sugosu

ima ga atte mina ga atte
matte tatte waratterareru
tamarazu ni namida wo
nagasu hodo ni arigatou

warattekureru, sasaetekureru
hagemashite kureru daiji na hito he
ima wo kuruu kono kimochi wo
wasurezu ni, itsumo

English translation:

I spend all my days here the same way,
chilling out, relaxed and unconcerned.
There are so many things to do,
a lot of them impossible for me.
It’s totally overwhelming,
but I’m always ready to do what I can
because everyone here has a smile on their face.
I may not say it very often,
but I really am grateful for my family and friends.
The time we spend together is so special,
I could never replace any of them.
We’ve got this moment, we’ve got each other
stopping, standing and laughing together.
I’m so thankful, I could cry.
This feeling is so wonderful,
it makes today seem like a wild dream.
I promise you, I’ll never forget it, my precious ones,
who laugh with me, support me,
and keep me going.

I’ll miss everyone