Entering the Workforce – What happened to Seishun?
It has been a while!!! Time for an update. This has been waiting for some typing madness.
I don’t know anymore how exactly to blog so bear with me. It’s been 10 months since I’ve actually written something. Quite sad isn’t it? Let’s skip the details on why I wasn’t able to blog shall we? I just wasn’t able to. Let’s keep it at that.
There were several ways for me to have done blogging if I really wanted to. I mean, I go to office and have my station. I can use my computer to write entries if I’m done with my tasks (calling it out as early as now: I rarely have idle time. Or if I have, I’d rather rest). Despite the obstacles, I was able to finish watching the original Gundam series and Zeta just using my smartphone. Can you believe that? And I’m technically not disconnected to the anisphere as I can still read the tweets from time to time. And yet I just wasn’t able to blog. Sigh, I’ve been wondering myself why.
Don’t get me wrong, I still like anime. I still watch at least one episode everyday even if it’s a rewatch. I just won’t survive. If I didn’t have my smartphone, I could have suffered a mental breakdown, seriously. With the pile of work I do in the office, anime remains to be the only remedy that alleviates the stress. They are the only thing that distracts me from pesky real life obligations that eats up my time. I guess things aren’t just like before. My line of work has something to do with operations so technically I’m up the “everything under the sun” department (although I deal with numbers, most of the time). The work I’m doing is not boring at all. I’ve been learning a lot as it’s my first job. But I guess, the time I used to allot just daydreaming, thinking of future blog posts, and thinking about interesting ideas, suddenly went down the drain.
Most of what occupies my mind right now is… Where can I get that report? Maybe if I speak to that person, I can solve the issue we had from last month? Which report should I run to do this month’s reconciliation? Are there any issues within the region that I need to investigate? How exactly can we simplify this process?
Maybe I’m too workaholic? HAHA. I wish my brain would just stop thinking of work right after my schedule, and then immediately wear my aniblogging hat. Unfortunately, I can’t do that, at least not yet. Which is why this place has been empty even though I’m around spouting non-sense at Twitter. I might have a broken PC for the last eight months (oh yes, and I survived with just a smartphone) but that might have been just a convenient excuse for me to take a break from blogging… And supposedly, I have returned! Quite ironic, I know. But if I won’t start today, then when would I? Maybe I should set the bar a little higher this time. I mean, ghostlighting was able to blog while working for the longest time before he ended that chapter. He also has her cute daughter! I’m not even in a relationship? What’s holding me back? I need to stop this procrastination, really.
I’m so into UC universe of Gundam now. How many posts could have I written about Unicorn?! I’m wasting all those ideas that are being washed away by thoughts that can technically wait once I’m at the office. Thoughts that simply cause anxiety.
Ah, if only I could be so laidback like Hasebe in terms of attitude. But no, I cannot do that. I would prefer to experience the hardships while I’m still young rather than delay it and experience the difficulty to settle down when the time calls for it. The sad part is, most of my colleagues have been telling me that I’m burning my youth in the office. Haha, I know, please stop rubbing it on my face already.
I could have been collecting my seishun points right now with a certain self-proclaimed
futon alien girl!
Whew, I just had to let that out guys. So, anyone around there who’s having /had the same dilemma? Not that anyone’s going to read this! Hmpf.
Hopefully I get to write anime-related posts soon! Gatcha!
(that’s a clue)
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